Weekly Treatments Almost Done....

Sometimes a lot happens or nothing happens and I don't post. I could probably get better at posting regardless. Here's my last recap of what's the latest. I had my second MRI and the tumor mass still isn't growing (mini-yay!). The bone is still eroding and although the doctors are still speculating, I looked at the films myself and it seems to be getting much worse. Still no answer as to why its eroding and the bone is getting smaller.

So let's break it down: the tumor is not growing. While I should be happy I fear that it will start growing without any indication. I'm also afraid that when I went off birth control, that THAT made the tumor stop and not the chemo.

On to the bone. What the *^%? Not only can the doctors not tell me what's going on but I'm still playing a waiting game. Annoying. Wait a few more months and see if its "really" bad. Oh well that's nice, its not your bone. They also fear all the radiation might have caused another tumor to grow on or near the bone. But they won't biospy because they could cause trauma and my desmoid to regrow. Bone = my worst enemy (aside from the tumor).

My last complaint is that the drugs keep making me sicker and sicker. I'm tired of feeling sick. I'm tired of taking anti-nausea drugs. I'm tired and want to be better again soon. Last week I was only sick 1.5 days which was HUGE. The prior week I was sick 4 of 7 days. This inconsistency is the reason why I finally went on short-term leave. I can't take not knowing when I can and cannot be in the office. Skipping meetings makes me a bad employee. So staying home until I'm all better is my best bet. I hate being home but I'm finding things to keep me busy. AKA I have a growing love affair with my sewing machine. HGTV here I come!

My last complain (and I mean it this time) is that I was sooooo close to going to bi-weekly treatments. I have 2 more weekly treatments and then I'm free! However, I'm now going on a bone drug which means I will have to be at the hospital 3 of 4 weeks a month. Not so awesome. Should I go back to work? Should I stay home? I do not know.

In happy news, I did buy jeggings (told you I would post about them). I really wanted them because I have calf-high, open toed, suade boots. I wanted the stretchy jean so I could wear the boots on the outside with cute Fall outfits. I've been waiting it out to see if I could really pull off that look. Anyway, some of my friends bought jeggings. After seeing them on friends I bought them. Got a steal on the jeggings from Old Navy for only $17. Now that's cheap, good fashion!