Busy Posting Week

I've been delaying posting but I think this week will be post-heavy. Since my last visit to the doctor, they said my bone was still very broken. I'm ok with the arm being broken as long as I can still use it.

Two people have mentioned to me this week that they noticed I'm not using my arm. I guess I didn't know how externally noticeable that was to other people. Since the brace/sling have come off my arm has just lost all mobility and flexibility. I need to start therapy to make it stronger and better. Unfortunately, I don't want to go until I have had a year of clear MRIs. My 8ish month MRI is coming up on Monday. I'm terrified.

I'm terrified in a way that is completely unrealistic. It is just that in the 4 years I've been dealing with this, I've actually never had a clean 6 month MRI. So that is causing some of my anxiety. In positive news, I'm not having any sharp shooting pain in my arm. It's not hot unless I really am working my arm. Those things make me feel really good. Then the loss of mobility makes me nervous. I'm also slightly worried about this one spot that is sensitive to touch. At this point, I just want it to be Wednesday and for the whole ordeal to be over. It's necessary but un-necessary stress. I need the MRI, but I don't need the anxiety. So please send some positive thoughts or prayers my way. I could use them this week.