Just putting it out there - I'm miserable.

I've tried several times to write this post and Blogger is insisting on formatting it with floating images. This is NOT the time to test my patience. Instead, you will get to read me vent. I'm upset with blogger. I'm upset with the MRI I'm scheduled for this afternoon. I'm upset that the fundraiser I'm planning. I'm upset I had tumor arm pain last week. I just want to curl up and hide. Why won't people donate to the DTRF? Why won't people come to an event to support me? I know people have other diseases they are behind but don't you realize that if this horrible disease don't get stopped that it is life threatening to me? I'm taking it personally. I shouldn't but I can't help it. My tumor pain upsets me. It could be that I was working out with my arm or the tumor could be growing. The arm is getting softer but the pain is hard to ignore and write off. That pisses me off. I keep thinking about horribly depressing thoughts. I'm miserable. I want this week to be over. I want this disease to be over. I don't want to feel like this any more. I want to stop spontaneously crying. I just want to be OK.