No Longer a Hermit

I've officially decided that I'm ok with everything that happened to me in January. Everything from finding my tumor growing, to dealing with another round of chemo. Becoming one with it is healthier than hiding out. Hiding out and being a hermit, did give me time to compose my thoughts. It gave me time to really deal with my emotions before openly putting them out there for public consumption.

So for those of you who do know me (hi! hello!) I'm back to feeling like me. For all of those who went out of their way to do a nice gesture for me, I do appreciate it. Thank you.

Now on to the "how are you feeling" type of questions and answers. I figured I'd answer some of the common questions I've been hearing.

Q1: How are you feeling?
A1: Better than I thought I would. I'm itchy but less so now that my first week. Turns out I was using a lotion I was allergic to. The drugs make little patches of hives but its quite manageable.

Q2: Do you get sick? (ok, no one asks me this but I think people are thinking it)
A2: The drugs are SO MUCH BETTER than last time. I take 2 pills, once a day. I have to avoid dairy and/or greasy foods so my stomach doesn't implode. If I eat like I should, then I can't even tell I'm on drugs.

Q3: When do you find out if it's working?
A3: They said I should be able to tell after 2 weeks. Honestly, I don't feel my arm being any different. Most people had decreased pain after 2 weeks. Since my arm wasn't sending shooting pains, I don't have a good indicator like other people. Honestly, 2.5 months from today I'll find out if my first MRI shows shrinkage.

Q4: Are you ok?
A4: If I tell you I am ok, I really am. 99% of the time, I actually forget I'm taking drugs. I'm dealing with this the best I can. When I can't deal with it and I feel like curling up, I pray to God to give me strength.

I think those are the top 4 questions I get. If you  have more, post a comment and I'll respond. Don't worry if you don't know me and want to ask. I wouldn't put all of this out there if I didn't want to talk about it. Talking about it makes me feel better and stronger. If I do know you, feel free to post anonymous if you don't want me to know it's you.  I really don't mind.

Today I go into the doctor's for my weekly check-up. Here's to hoping my blood work comes back squeaky clean!